falling in love with a black guy

So confused don’t know what to do. Should I take the chance? Is it worth to try? I am so scared, I fear to see the looks on people’s faces or hear their comments. Call me paranoid, but sorry.. well, I guess I really am. I can’t bear people’s criticisms. I am weak at that, though I know when to stand up again still the moment I heard somebody’s hurtful remarks, I really can’t help but think of it and hate them. These are one reason why I can’t make up my mind until now. I like him, I am falling for him. But it makes me wonder how they will judge me.

My Mom says, ‘What is wrong with that? They don’t have the right to say nasty things about you. If that is what they thought, let them think that way, what matter is that we know you. We know that nothing’s wrong in you decision, in what you did and in what you feel.’

Of course I know nothing is wrong in that. I never ruin any relationship nor do I gossip about their miserable life with their partners. The only thing is that, I’ve fallen for a man, who is not of my own race, different skin color. We can call it discrimination that is how others see it. But people should think that we are all human, we’re just born in different countries varying in skin color & languages we use.. but still we are all human.